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Well...after being sober for 3.5 years, I now haven't been sober for 4 days. I just don't see a reason to be sober.
Even my only IRL friend flaked on me yesterday and I haven't heard from him since. I feel so worthless, lost, and unloveable.
I'm having a bad time.😔
I'm so fucking tired.
My dad passed away last week and I am the sole beneficiary. I have so much to deal with and so much on my plate that I don't have even have time to grieve.
On top of that, for the past month or so I've been "flirting" with a woman that I fell pretty hard for, and she stopped responding so much in the past few days.
I have nobody. My 1 IRL friend makes plans and doesn't follow through. Nobody texts me.
I'm drunk as hell for the first time in 3.5 years and I'm spiraling pretty fucking hard. I can't deal with myself.😔
They say "nobody is coming to save you. You need to save yourself".
Yet I don't want to save myself anymore.
I'm at the point where if nobody comes to save me, then I know nobody wants me around anyway and I don't want to be around.😔
Broke my sobriety today.
3.5 years. Nobody cares but me and I don't really care, so....🤷♂️
Fuck it. What's the point.
@Sibshops @beaware.social yeah, unfortunately I get too much hate here for my AI stuff anytime I post it. It's exhausting. At least on Threads I can turn off comments or such.
It has worked out very well for me thus far! It's the most left-leaning corporate social media there is. Plus, I've met someone and I'm falling pretty hard for her. So I feel like it's worked out better than I could have hoped for.🫣😅
Hope you're doing well friend.
I've had different hobbies lately than when I was on here and just talking about Fedi, games, and AI.
I enjoy professional wrestling a LOT and there's just not enough discussion to be had surrounding that here. That's the main reason I started posting there.🤷♂️
@ppb1701 yeah I'm trying. Stupid situationship issues with this woman and having to deal with my dad just been getting to my head.
So I decided to start walking like I was before COVID and try to get my weight down again. If I stay busy, I keep my mind off things.